Early in the morning I sat on the couch, my laptop awaiting the click-click-click of my brain and its compliant fingers. Steaming coffee. Vast silence. Cloudy skies. Heavy heart.
I looked out the window and saw six tiny birds sitting on a wire.
I thought about easy it is for them to sit there, perched and pretty, barely hanging on, not a care in the world.
I thought about how when they let go, they soar. How the wind buoys them up into the heavens.
I thought about how hard it is for me to sit still. How I feel like I’m barely hanging on. How I carry the weight of the world on my shoulders.
I thought that were I to really-completely-totally let go, I would undoubtedly crash. How the wind feels brutal and even violent. How flying and any sense of the heavens feels distant, impossible, and as certain-foolish-hope.
Then I just felt. Lots.
And then I thought that maybe that’s why those six birds sat there: waiting for me to think thoughts and then think new ones and then feel – lots and then trust and then Just.Let.Go.
Think. Feel – lots. Trust. Just.Let.Go. And believe that to soar is the only possible result.
Got it.
And just then, in that moment, the birds flew away and the sun broke through the clouds. God’s honest truth.