I am totally spent. It’s been a long day; already a long week. Though I had every intention of writing a new post – one I started a couple days ago – my energy is completely gone.
In a rare window of time I was turning the pages in Life Is a Verb: 37 Days to Wake Up, Be Mindful, and Live Intentionally by Patti Digh. I will be having conversation with her in just a few hours and have been reading some of her beautiful writing in preparation. When I came across the following text, I took a deep breath, exhaled, and felt rest.
Exhausted, but still inspired.
Saved. Thanks, Patti.
I’m relatively certain the same will be true for you.
In a recent interview with Mother Jones, Eve Ensler said: “There’s the violence that comes toward us, and there’s violence we do to ourselves—we’re picking up the magazines, we’re dieting, we’re getting the lipo. Why are women immobile? Because so many feel like they’re waiting for someone to say, ‘You’re good, you’re pretty, I give you permission.”
I want to be Eve Ensler when I grow up.
I’m going to Kim’s Wig Shop downtown tomorrow to get her black, shiny pageboy hair in wig form. I’m going to speak out and be energetic and articulate and have something important to say. I’m going to pay attention to what’s going on in the world as if the fate of the earth depends on me paying attention. I’m going to have a point of view and an opinion without waiting for other people to tell me what it is. I’m going to do the work that I know I need to do, that I must do, that I’ve been waiting my whole life to do, without waiting for an audience. I’m going to sit up straighter and I’m going to make people hear me. I’m going to ask a lot more questions, and I’m going to pay attention to the answers as if they really matter. I’m going to really, really listen to people when they tell me their stories. I’m going to raise my voice when it needs to be raised. I’m going to lend my voice to people who have none. I’m going to figure out how to be an effective advocate for others. I’m not going to care anymore whether people like me when I speak my truth. I’m never going to ask for permission again. As Eve Ensler said, “I am going to hold who I am in the face of anything.”
Thanks for inspiring Patti, Eve. And thanks for inspiring me, Patti. Can’t wait to talk to you in just a matter of hours!
I’ll get some sleep in the meantime.